MJ NIXON
“Community and accountability were key in my journey. I began to understand the truth of who I truly am.”
Being born into a conservative Christian family, I was taught right from wrong at a young age, but I could never reconcile my faith with the attractions that lingered within. Being the middle child with two brothers, I started taking on their attributes and mentalities. This shaped my mindset from a healthy understanding of femininity to embracing a more masculinized identity. Outwardly, I was a rough and tumble tomboy, but inwardly, attractions towards females began to grow. Not knowing who to talk to or how to even share, I hid my attractions for my whole childhood and adolescence.
In college, everything changed. I was away from home and was finally in an environment of acceptance. One day, a woman caught my eye; a friendship was formed, and a sexual relationship followed. Through this new relationship, I expressed my hidden inward attractions toward females for the first time in my life. We lived together for five years and envisioned a future together. Despite the deep bond this created, there was still a pull to end that relationship and seek after one with God. I really had always had an inner tug of war going on that caused me to question my attraction to her and my relationship with Jesus. Ultimately, I understood this inner conflict was directing me to the truth of my life as a woman.
The Bible was the greatest resource in my journey of freedom from homosexuality, along with videos of former LGBTQ members on YouTube and Vimeo. I attended a small group for people seeking healing from sexual brokenness, which was a huge support for me. Community and accountability were key in my journey. I began to understand the truth of who I truly am. Now I live to serve others, share my story and tell others about the transformation I have experienced. And I have seen God lead others into happy and free lives, healing their hearts the way He did mine.
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